The past month has been a pretty turbulent one. I was signed off from my old job by my doctor and i took the opportunity to quit my job and move in with my partner. It was all pretty sudden as we both came to the decision together within a couple of days of talking about it. We both lived in separate towns and we would travel to see each other. It broke the week up and was a nice routine as we both worked full time jobs. I have been out of work for nearly a month now and i am about ready to get back to work. I have a job interview on Monday and i do hope i get it as it is rather good pay for the type of job it is.
A month ago when i had to be signed off work, my depression hit pretty hard. I have had about 3-4 depressive episodes this year which is the most iv’e had in such a short space of time. I have been up and down like a yo-yo and it was really taking it’s toll on me. I believe i was having these episodes because of my job. It was physically demanding which wasn’t so bad as it did keep me fit. The thing which broke me down was the amount of toxic mentality in the work place. These sorts of things you can brush off if it’s in small amounts. however when it is constantly going on it can build up and become very stressful. The stress eventually built up and played havoc on my mental health.
So eventually i had to leave yet another job. It’s all OK because i got through it all and i am now living with my partner. I’ve been here for three weeks and i have an interview with a job that i actually want. I’m pretty excited because i can finally work part time and still get a half decent wage. It means i can focus more on myself and work around a positive lifestyle. Having my own time if important to keep my head at bay as i can focus on positive activities rather than only thinking about work. It’s easy to loose your head in the net of chaotic thoughts once the balance is tipped, and i have been tipped too many times this year. If i do get this job, i can work on a more balanced life. I couldn’t have achieved this without my partner. Although it is up to me to get things done, it’s always good to have reliable help along the way.
My point here is that you don’t have to carry on the way you are going if you are unhappy. Maybe you feel trapped and lost in life and need that time off to find your head. It’s all possible and you’re allowed the time off to get your mind together. Ask someone at work or see a GP to get time off. You are allowed to do it. It can be hard but there are ways to get around these slumps. I got round mine and it is starting to pay off. Fingers crossed it all works out 🙂